And then I moved to Spain.

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Introspective thoughts, my weight loss journey, and some pretty interesting adventures I'm getting to experience.
  • March 12, 2014 2:34 pm
    Is this a new chapter or a new book!? I landed in Spain this morning. For good. It all kind of happened fast, but here’s the short story. I started working for an amazing, global pharmaceutical company when I was 21. I lucked out by getting an entry-level job answering phones in Customer Service. I didn’t have a bachelor’s degree but knew I wanted to complete it soon and advance my career. Over the last 6 years, my company invested in me, gave me countless opportunities for career advancement, financially supported the completion of my bachelor’s and master’s degree, and most recently they have moved me to Spain where I will spend the next two years on an international assignment to broaden my career and hopefully create better opportunities in the future.
While the decision to take this amazing job opportunity was a no-brainer, it wasn’t until I was sitting in the Atlanta airport yesterday that it really hit me. I am leaving behind everything I’ve ever known. My family in Indiana. My sister in the USMC stationed in Texas. The guy I’ve been dating who might be the one. And a job that I was great at. Here in Spain I have a beautiful apartment (that needs to be furnished, hello IKEA), an amazing job opportunity that I need to bust ass to learn about, beautiful surroundings, and the support from family who is halfway around the world. If i complain, I am a selfish bitch because nobody will argue that this is a once in a lifetime opportunity. But I can afford to be brutally honest with you all, because I truly don’t personally know anyone who reads this blog, but I am more scared than I have ever been in my life. Logistically, it’s not cheap to move to Spain. Yes, the company is reimbursing me for a lot of expenses and I will be fairly compensated, but RIGHT NOW, I’m stressing out. Having some trouble staying grounded, focusing on the good, and reminding myself that I am truly blessed to have this opportunity. I almost didn’t get on that plane yesterday, but then I talked to my mom and KG (my special guy friend) and we agreed that I need to give this a shot. 
So the nature of this blog is gonna be shifting. I’m sorry to all of the weight loss followers I have. This did start as a way to keep you all in the loop on my progress, and I will still post pictures on my progress. Truth me told, this opportunity may not have happened if I still weighed 300 pounds and lacked the confidence to put myself out there. I just need a place to document these thoughts and feelings as they surface. Thank you all for your support, thoughts and prayers. You’ve always been amazing followers and it feels so good to know that there are strangers all over the world who spend at least 2 seconds of their day thinking of me. You’re all special and beautiful to me. Please feel free to send messages, inspiration, ideas, and just good vibes. I love you all and I look forward to sharing my journey with you.

    Is this a new chapter or a new book!? I landed in Spain this morning. For good. It all kind of happened fast, but here’s the short story. I started working for an amazing, global pharmaceutical company when I was 21. I lucked out by getting an entry-level job answering phones in Customer Service. I didn’t have a bachelor’s degree but knew I wanted to complete it soon and advance my career. Over the last 6 years, my company invested in me, gave me countless opportunities for career advancement, financially supported the completion of my bachelor’s and master’s degree, and most recently they have moved me to Spain where I will spend the next two years on an international assignment to broaden my career and hopefully create better opportunities in the future.

    While the decision to take this amazing job opportunity was a no-brainer, it wasn’t until I was sitting in the Atlanta airport yesterday that it really hit me. I am leaving behind everything I’ve ever known. My family in Indiana. My sister in the USMC stationed in Texas. The guy I’ve been dating who might be the one. And a job that I was great at. Here in Spain I have a beautiful apartment (that needs to be furnished, hello IKEA), an amazing job opportunity that I need to bust ass to learn about, beautiful surroundings, and the support from family who is halfway around the world. If i complain, I am a selfish bitch because nobody will argue that this is a once in a lifetime opportunity. But I can afford to be brutally honest with you all, because I truly don’t personally know anyone who reads this blog, but I am more scared than I have ever been in my life. Logistically, it’s not cheap to move to Spain. Yes, the company is reimbursing me for a lot of expenses and I will be fairly compensated, but RIGHT NOW, I’m stressing out. Having some trouble staying grounded, focusing on the good, and reminding myself that I am truly blessed to have this opportunity. I almost didn’t get on that plane yesterday, but then I talked to my mom and KG (my special guy friend) and we agreed that I need to give this a shot. 

    So the nature of this blog is gonna be shifting. I’m sorry to all of the weight loss followers I have. This did start as a way to keep you all in the loop on my progress, and I will still post pictures on my progress. Truth me told, this opportunity may not have happened if I still weighed 300 pounds and lacked the confidence to put myself out there. I just need a place to document these thoughts and feelings as they surface. Thank you all for your support, thoughts and prayers. You’ve always been amazing followers and it feels so good to know that there are strangers all over the world who spend at least 2 seconds of their day thinking of me. You’re all special and beautiful to me. Please feel free to send messages, inspiration, ideas, and just good vibes. I love you all and I look forward to sharing my journey with you.

  • February 1, 2014 5:05 pm
    heavensinureyes:  Hey girl ! Just saw your picture on before and after tumblr. You look amazing !! Just wondering if you had to deal with excess skin during your weight loss and how you dealt with that?

    Abso-freaking-lutely I have excess skin! I honestly haven’t done anything to deal with it, I just let it happen. I was self-conscious at first. I mean, I went from 280 to 140 pretty quickly. But then I just decided to be okay with it. I’ll never look like a Victoria’s Secret model, but I’ve accepted that now. :)image

  • February 1, 2014 4:54 pm

    A New Life. It’s almost been three years since I decided to take control over my life and lose that weight. And as I look back, it’s hard to remember who I was. Don’t get me wrong, I have vivid memories. Anger towards almost everything in life, jealousy towards friends who were skinny, confusion at how it got that far, fear that I’d never find happiness, and sadness that I’d never get to actually experience life. Now, almost three years later, I’ve had a whirlwind of experiences that, I hate to say it, but I would never have had these opportunities before. As soon as I started to lose weight, my personality began to emerge. I started to realize the person I thought I was, she was just a facade. A defense mechanism to protect myself against anyone who might not accept a 280 pound girl. And as soon as I started to lose weight and respect myself, I started gaining the respect of other people. And now? I just accepted a job in Spain with my company. Deep down I wonder if this could have happened 140 pounds ago. Who knows… I think I’ll always wonder. I still haven’t found lasting love, I still have a completely chaotic relationships with both of my parents, and I still have no healthy body image because I still don’t even recognize my own reflection in a mirror. But then again, it’s only been a couple years. I’ve never been good at the whole patience thing. :)

  • July 23, 2013 11:38 pm

    Before & After. Bathroom Self-Photo Edition. :)

  • December 21, 2012 5:10 pm

    Before & After: Little Black Dress Edition

    I’ll post more about my “feelings” later, but I had a company function this week and wanted to wear a cute dress. I wish I could say that I felt like I looked amazing in that dress, but at the end of the day, I think I still feel that I look like 270 pounds. I guess my mind is still catching up to my body.